Allow me to explain...

I'm one of those potentially boring people that exist in the bliss of "we". My wife and I have long been living under the dogma that "We're a package deal" meaning that if you want one of us, you get both. If you insist on only one, then you get... Nada!

It's not that we NEED to be together all the time, it's simply that we choose to. Because we WANT to.

Anyway, a while back I was thinking of a way to explain the way I feel, and the obvious first point is the fact that we're lovers AND absolutely best friends - soul mates in every way, if you believe in that sort of thing. But still, people seem to think this is just 'a line' that we [people of the homosexual persuasion] use to "promote our lifestyle". That's right, you KNOW you can hear some right wing homophobes using that exact line.

So here goes, this is my way of explaining how I feel about my wife:

You know when you have a great dream. No matter what your great dream is, you know it's the kind of dream where, when you wake up, you immediately try to go back to sleep. You do this, because all you want is to return to this world within your dream. Well, what if when you went to bed you could go to this dreamworld every night, and keep on having new experiences within this world? Wouldn't you just accept and Cherish this possibility? My life with my wife IS that great dream for me. And I always choose to live the dream with my wife. I cannot think of a reason why I shouldn't.

Feeling the love,
- GayGirl

I love this song

This song really doesn't suit my state of mind or feelings in general, but I remember a time when it fit my life perfectly. Actually, I didn't even know this song back then - thank you radio, Internet and YouTube for opening up the vast world of music. ;o)

Anyway, I'm sure others can relate to this song - or remember a time when they could - so I'd still like to share it with you. It's called "Losing you" and is by a Danish band called Kira & The Kindred Spirits. As far as I know they've made two amazing albums, though my favorite is without a doubt the one called "This is not an exit", where this song is from. I know the lead singer spent a lot of time in the US, and is friends with another of my favorite artist, Beth Hart, who has mentioned her at various concerts and in interviews.

Tonight I'll go to bed
Unsatisfied
My world is caving in
And I've got no place left to hide

And I won't let you down
But I've got scars in my mind
Your life is in my hands
I can't pretend that
Things are fine

Although I am scared
To sing you this song
I'm scared the words I say
Will cast in stone the
Damage done

And all that we have tried
And all that we did wrong
And who will hold the blame
And who will fight
Til love moves on

And I... I'm losing,
Yes I'm Losing you again...

And how is that babe
How is that babe
How is that my friend

You've got your pain
To tend to
A day to put an end to
A womb to climb back into
And a love that never bends you

Well all it seems I'm left with is some
Clarity to lend you
All it seems I'm left with
Is some truth to offend you

And I'm... I'm losing you,
I'm Losing you again...

Have you ever waited
Too long
When you knew your life's
Gone Wrong


And of course, you really should hear the song, 'cause the singer is one of the best in the world at portraying all the emotions of the lyrics in any song. I wanted to hear the song today and of course I found it on YouTube within seconds, so just go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqYn9bt_iSE

Getting in touch with all feelings,
-GayGirl

UPDATE: LindSam on Loveline audio

Here's a working link to the LindSam audio - the one from AfterEllen couldn't handle all the traffic. ;o)

Listen to the FULL interview directly from Loveline's website here

Just find the September 21st audio link called "Lindsay Lohan and Samantha Ronson call the show" - it's still the first link as this post is being made.

Happy to help,
- GayGirl

LindSam confirms romance and Aiken is [officially] out

A lot has been said about Lindsay Lohan's way of dealing with the "rumours" of her being in a romantic relationship with Samantha Ronson. Now, I can understand and (at least in theory) respect the fact that as long as she hasn't confirmed anything, then it would technically be "outing her", when you report on their relationship.
However, she has done nothing to hide their relationship or her feelings, and has done everything short of saying "Yep, I'm gay". So why is it that when it's a same-sex relationship, then we simply have to have this verbal confirmation? I think it's just plain stupid, and LindSam have handled it all in a great way, which Sarah Warn of AfterEllen has written a great piece on here - oh yes, I do adore the entire concept and execution of the AfterEllen concept.
Anyway, all those in need of the verbal confirmation now have it! :o) Lindsay Lohan has now openly talked about their relationship live on the radio via phone in by stating that they've been together for "A very long time", when asked directly about their relationship (don't take my word for it, you can hear it here).
Again, I'll just point you in the direction of AfterEllen for the full story.
Lindsay truly makes me feel proud for her and the way she handled everything with the press throughout the rumours and constant speculation about her very public feelings. You rock! :o)

All smiles,
- GayGirl

P.S. I don't mean to diminish Clay Aiken's "Yes, I'm gay" statement on the cover of People Magazine, but it was hardly a surprise, and while Lindsay hasn't been hiding, then he really has been very coy about the "gay issue". I will however give him due respect, for coming out with his son in his arms, and attracting focus to gay parents. AfterElton (yes, I love that site too, and I LOVE gay guys, so I'll be sure to touch back on that topic soon) has the full story.

It's working already...

See, my Blog Oath is working already 'cause here I am again!

Actually, I just realized that my true allegiance lies somewhere else - not that this means I won't keep my promises and live by my pledge of yesterday. I am not a fickle person, so you needn't worry.

In any case, here goes... The pledge that will triumph all others at any given time:

I pledge allegiance to my wife and to the marriage which symbolises our unity, one love, indivisible, with liberty and justice for us both

Always,
- GayGirl

The Blog Oath

Okay, so I really haven't been doing my job with this blog, which would be actually blogging on a regular basis. For that, I beg your forgiveness and humbly ask that you give me a chance to redeem myself as I make this Blog Oath:

I pledge allegiance to my blog and to the people who read it, one blog under me, indivisible, with humor, honesty, justice and at least one post a week for all to read.

I always keep my promises... At least when I actually mean them while making them ;o),
- GayGirl

A good job is great, a bad job is... HELL!

Okay, so I'm in a really good job now, which made me think about how I've been pretty happy with the jobs I've had. Except for one time, where I took on a job even though I had a feeling it wasn't right.

So why did I take it? Well, it's pretty simply actually:

1) Because they headhunted me, which was really flattering, and

2) They offered a damn nice paycheck, which I actually really needed.

Anyway, I learned my lesson quite fast, as I almost didn't make it home after the first day of work before breaking down in tears. In all honesty, my breakdown was due to many things, but boiled down to the fact that I'd left a steady job - which I could do with my eyes closed - and had great colleagues and quite a lot of freedom... Only thing missing was a decent salary and a promotion (both of which I had been promised for a long time).

The other "cry factor" was the fact that this new workplace had absolutely no freedom and a lot of extra hours, which I had said already at the job interview was the one thing I absolutely wasn't interested in. Because of this I felt cheated from the get go, and over all, I just wasn't happy. Plain and simple.

I only lasted a couple of months at this company before I found a new job, which I simple love - everyone could feel my misery, when I was at the other company, which became especially visible after I left the place and everyone commented on how happy I seemed again. And really, if I hadn't left my old job to take on the job I hated, then I probably wouldn't have ended up where I am now, so it was probably meant to be. Still, it was a really bad time for me.

But I do have to say that the people at that bad workplace were really nice - I was 'out and proud' from the first time they contacted me about the job and everyone accepted me completely - so I got to know some good people, and I learned a huge lesson:

Listen to your inner voice, gut feeling, intuition, WHATEVER you want to call it. It's usually right!

Happy at work,

- GayGirl

P.S. My sweet wife was ready to let me quit right away, cause she saw how unhappy I was, but I couldn't do this. First of all because we needed the money (it was after all one of the reasons I took the job), but also because I'm not a quitter. And they actually really liked me there, and offered me to come back if I changed my mind, but it just wasn't for me. Not the people or the work really, but the company and the way they did business, which was the one thing no one could change.

On vacations with Ellen

Sometimes these things happen, where you can't help but think that there is some greater force tying everything together. For me, this moment of enlightenment always come when I'm travelling, and somehow I always stumble across Ellen's talkshow... And I mean WHEREEVER I am. Obviously, it's no surprise that Ellen is on, when I'm in New York, but in the Middle East or Africa... i.e. Egypt?!

Now, the fact that her show was on isn't in itself that mindblowing amazing - Rachel Ray, Dr. Phil and Oprah were also on, so it's not like Ellen RULED the TV screens of Egypt. However, what IS amazing is the fact that whenever we're travelling and come across an episode of Ellen's talkshow, it's always one where's she's celebrating Cinco de Mayo! I mean, come on... I travel to New York in May and catch a show on the day of Cinco de Mayo: No surprise. But Ellen on TV in a Muslim country in September and again: It's Cinco de Mayo... AND on top of that, it's one I haven't seen before.

Uh huh, I'm really starting to believe that Ellen DeGeneres is the fabric that ties the world together. . .
Scratch that! She even talks with animals... Now I KNOW she is! ;o)

Back in business,
- GayGirl